Sad but True........

Positive thinking is incredible, it can manifest lots and lots of things, and everyday I see the incredible power of this.  I am however not invincible in my ability to create my desires.  I have days when my positive abilities dwell beneath the surface of the earth, with the worms.  Underground where I just can't seem to reach down and dig it out.  Though the gods have been smiling down on me, and one good thing after another has been happening for me, I am perplexed as to why I can't see to manifest one very important thing to make this dream a reality.  MONEY....the end all and be all of the continuation of this crazy adventure.  We work our kesters off, to pay bills, and buy wood.  Grain and mason jars, seedlings and groceries....and there seems to not be enough left over for the dream kitchen and dairy.  For this farm to be financially viable, we must have a dairy that is able to be licensenced by the state of Maine, and a kitchen that can be as well.  Currently we are giving away as much cheese as we can make, and milk to whom ever would like it.  The ice cream we make is incredible and I could make a simple living on the ice cream alone, if I only had a commercial ice cream machine.  Not to mention what its going to cost just for the labels for all this milky goodness....Don't get me wrong.  I am not complaining, just sending it out to you all and the universe that I need some help.....I need a Philanthropic Knight in shining  armor to come and save me from my distress.  When I day dream about this farm, I do it with the mindset of having a bottomless checkbook, and although the money if flowing freely, the farm is never ostentatious or overdone.  Its simple and classy and open to whom ever wants to visit.  To whomever want to come and learn, how to farm, how to care for animals, how to cook and entertain...To whomever want to come and talk about their dreams they have been afraid to pursue.  This farm WILL be a place for people of all ages who have felt the crushing denial of their dreams, it will be a place to learn things that you have always wanted to know about farming and its potential, and how it can be incredibly stimulating for all aspects of your life.  It will be a place to find who you are.  It has been that place for me, In such a short period of time, Just over a year I have come to the simple realisation that being who you are and loving that person is incredibly important to your success in life.  I am passionate about this lifestyle and its rewards, and it rewards me everyday.  Now with all this positivity if I can just manifest a power ball win, or wealthy investor in a really cool local farm I would be set for life....So I will not let the tiny creeping negative thoughts out weight the positive and somehow....someway I will have this dairy and commercial kitchen so our Delicious goat milk products can be enjoyed by our friends and neighbors.....
I thank you all for keeping up with this crazy ramblings of a friendly female farmer....
Nighty Night....